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Post by lj on Sept 27, 2016 19:41:46 GMT
Oh I guess you get the email because it's your topic. I'm very anti social too just can't be bothered and honestly don't know whether anyone can help the way I feel. The worst is in the middle of the night I feel more lonely than ever.
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Post by lj on Sept 27, 2016 19:42:47 GMT
I'm trying to figure out how to email you.
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Post by lj on Sept 27, 2016 19:45:08 GMT
Taking my daughter to dance BRB
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Post by Danielle ..DJ s mom on Sept 27, 2016 20:50:35 GMT
Aww sucky and a blessing all at once... How old is your daughter.. I have an 11 year old, also in dance, and a 1 year old.. I went through Mother's Day and my birthday right after my son passed.. Shitty first ! And his 23 birthday just passed...that really was hard.... Try and enjoy your daughters birthday and feel good knowing your son is watching over her Blessing
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Post by Danielle ..DJ s mom on Sept 27, 2016 20:51:57 GMT
My email is SMITHFAM2182001@hotmail.com Write anytime...
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Post by lj on Sept 27, 2016 21:34:16 GMT
Ok just sent you email from LJF1965@yahoo.com in case it goes to your spam ttyl
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Post by Danielle ..DJ s mom on Oct 1, 2016 5:10:02 GMT
Evening all.. I was surprised to see over a hundred views.. Only one person ever responded lol...that's ok it's still my therapy / venting..maybe it helps someone feel not so alone and crazy... I certainly feel both.. Crazy and alone and I'm fucking tired.... I'm physically and emotionally tired... I still have to tend to everyone and who tends to me lol not a god damn person... Don't get me wrong my hubby is there and puts up with all my outburst and anger ...while I'm running after the baby... Sometimes I'm mad at my son and blame him.. Damn him why did he leave me... I miss his face... I miss his hugs the most..he was a great hugger... Good nite
blessings Danielle
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Post by Danielle ..DJ s mom on Oct 6, 2016 21:51:49 GMT
Happy freaking October ! Sept was sucky for me... DJ would have been 23.. So October 31 is my nieces birthday, she would have been 27 this All Hallows' eve My crazy brains been contemplating death and whether it's better to know ahead of time (cancer) or if a sudden passing is easier... My niece fought cancer for two years ...slowly losing the fight... While my sons passing was horrific and sudden...is one better then another..not better per se but easier to adjust too.... I can't seem to adjust/move forward.... It's almost been 6 months since his death and not one day goes by I'm not trying to find a "what if". What if I did this or said that....if I had not moved...if I said something different that last day...maybe circumstances would have been different... Where as my niece was so sick but everyone had a chance to be with her whenever possible knowing soon she would pass and be healthy and happy agin.. i know in the end it don't fucking matter!! I guess we learn as we go .... Blessings
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Post by Danielle ..DJ s mom on Oct 17, 2016 5:36:40 GMT
It's been six months today since I lost my sunshine.... i dont cry EVERY day . It's gone by fast and slow too lol if that makes sense..... I can't believe it's been six months ... Def the longest of my life... I honestly feel like I have been in a haze... It's all for now...
Blessings Danielle
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Post by Danielle ..DJ s mom on Oct 17, 2016 15:23:56 GMT
Well that was a cluster fuck of a post last night.. I had so much to say but I could not stop crying.... I miss him so much DJ was my world, my first born, my son...there is nothing like the mother son bond...they are called mamas boys and daddy's girls for a reason. Hope today is a better day for us all ❤️
Blessings
Danielle
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Post by Danielle ..DJ s mom on Oct 31, 2016 20:45:01 GMT
Happy Halloween ... today is a day to celebrate your loved ones who have passed and honor their memories.... I have been crying all damn day.... I honestly don't know how to proceed in life, I feel lost and alone... I feel like I did not protect my son, I feel like I have not been the absolute best mother I could have been. How could I let this happen to him... Blessings
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Post by mamad on Nov 1, 2016 22:27:02 GMT
Hello Danielle, I hope that last night went as well as it could. The feelings of a mother are so strong, and we always want to do our best, and protect our children, but unfortunately we can not always be there. I have the same thoughts also, and I cry also, and then I think of what he would say to me, and try to move on moment by moment. This hurt is like no other.
Wishing us all peace through this storm.
Stay Blessed
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Post by Danielle ..DJ s mom on Nov 2, 2016 21:06:14 GMT
Thank you Moment by moment ! Blessings
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Post by calisa1969 on Nov 4, 2016 19:53:33 GMT
Hello all... A shitty place for us all to be, but here we are.. my name is Danielle, I lost my oldest child, DJ, on 4-16-16... Life does not get easier, sorry....
I'm Lisa and I also lost my oldest son Zachary on the same date, although first responders didn't reach him until after midnight, so his recorded date is 04/17/2016. My son was just 22 years old. My kids and I will never recover.
I'm also new here, looking to find some way of making it through life without him.
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Post by Danielle ..DJ s mom on Nov 4, 2016 21:15:28 GMT
Hello Lisa You know what's the strangest thing.... My son also passed n the 16 but they did not find him till the17... Sooo on his grave and every other thing says the 17... Well that's some shit cause I can't believe he was suffering until they found him.... I'm truly sorry for your loss ...we will travel this road together Blessings
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